today. it was supposed to end off a gd evening, aft his family dinner to meet me spend some time with me since im not seeing him tomorrow and to book the HK tix. but things didnt go tht way.. it was supposed to be simple, i was looking forward to pick him from his dinner place at 8pm. but they finish earlier then he thought, n they headed down to serangoon central so tht his sista could c a doctor. i assumed tht the parents r with her, so ivan can leave anytime when i arrived, therefore i said ok to go pick him up now. but when i was almost there he drop me a voice msg to say tht hopefully his sista will be done soon so tht i dun haf to wait so long at the carpark. immediately i send a voice msg to whine saying tht i haf to wait ah.. then i shld haf stayed at home longer. apparently i forgot tht the sista n parents may hear it. n i was like shit. thts it for me. so i quickly called n he said its alright he will come out. i was alr pissed off like shit y send me such voice msg juz call me cant he? like im in deep shit tht the parents hear it. but he told me only his sista hear it his parents r off buying bread. i had a omnimous feeling when i hear it. like somehow i sense trouble.

indeed later on the mum called n gave him unrest. n there goes our evening. there goes for him n there goes for me too.

im really tired. his family juz cant let him do wad he wans. i alwaz get shits n get marked down juz bcoz i duno the whole pict. juz bcoz i duno wad they r particular of. y is it this way. all i wan is a partner who is happy who hears me n can be there anytime for me when i need him.........