yer pissed off yah? goodness! try pulling the damn freaking trolley thru the curbs.. n NOT A STRAIGHT ROAD... I repeat not a straight road... u guys juz cross the road n sae run run run faster... like how can we pull a trolley and run faster plus a trolley cant run across curbs like humans do...?! yes unreasonable n nonsensical.. i wasnt having my pms... goodness... n i told wenyan 10plus! not 10pm...~ pls get it right 9 u leave 10plus u get back doesnt it make sense... I wasnt told tt the bus comes ONLI at 1020 aniwae... i onli heard u guys say 9pm we leave...
then u muz be thinking now... so hard then next tym dun go LA..... den yah fine nxt tym dun go... pushing a trolley is not easy... otherwise while going from the shopping centre to the train station y u c mi n her being left behind... is she right in front with u guys no! the place got so many slopes and curbs..! it juz keep banging everywhere... maybe the person who tkes over mi find it easy... coz the path u walk was a straight road! n yes i regret changing with u.. coz i find it unfair... u had the damn detergent in your bag.... n u onli carried the 2 light bags n the pizza its so easy to carry.. isnt it rather absurd to take out the detergent from your bag n place it on my hand when i took over u.. n ni hv to hold the pizza in such a way that it is straight? then i hv the damn loads... n i hv to make sure the pizzas are straight n not falling... u tink i can when u also CANT n finally put the bags of cans which was on ur hands into the trolley saying it was heavy? it is not ur loads r heavy .. it is because I have to hold the pizza in a straight way... + with the detergent on my hand tt WASNT on ur hands but in ur BAG... cant u say then i hold ur bag which got the detergent? at least i have a bag n not stranded with the detergent on my hand..
yes.. i wasnt right to complain so much.... n make a big huge fuss... bcz wad i m pushing is heavier than what is on ur guys hand but I am only pushing or pulling it onli.. yes i m in a rush to go home... BUT it is still hard to pull n push for me... tt is how i find it personally, that is y i m slow.. n coz i m slow i m pissed with MYSELF, n u guys juz walk n nv turn back!! n who bother waiting for me, and ask mi how m i coping? who at the station ask mi m i ok? who stop to help me cross the railway station tracks with kathy? who was nice enuf to stay behind and accompany mi walk... onli 5 gals! n i m proud to announce their name sapna, crystal, kathy, priya and wenyan... if u find mi complain alot.. i tink e other gal is none ani other beta than me.. if she can sae "Fren" i can sae tt too.... coz i noe e others r pissed at me... BUT they still bother to ask mi n i noe they r there with mi tired with their loads... so isnt tt wad frens r 4... to ask u how u r when u r dwn.. to help u do tings u cant manage to.. to juz even accompany u by ur side when they r helpless too... n NOT complain saying like "oh she is a bitch make so much noise, cant u c we also carry alot load n we r carrying on our hands n not pushing or pulling it which is like so easy", try it! dun juz SAY it.. If u tink i mke so much noise right.. u guys r real farni, cant ur say hey i change with u lo, since u tink pushing or pulling is so difficult... then u carry my load i push or pull ur trolley... its so weird no one actually ask mi tt.. esp when u tink i m complaining SO MUCH... rubbish...!
u duno the whole situation.. dun sae so much... i m a person who normally eats alot... do u noe tt i onli ate 1 muffin for the whole day, n 1 rasberry cookie tt she has offered me and ask mi to take from e fridge if wan.. tt is all.. i didnt snack like u guys... tt is y i m tired n hungry, i feel so low energy to move, n i get breathless easily when I am low in glucose! did u noe tt? i bet u dun! coz only sapna saw mi hyperventilating, n she ask mi whether I wan let her carry.. I sae no... I noe i can move on.. juz tt i will be veri slow... I noe u guys were complaining about mi when u were dwnstairs... so i didnt wana go dwn animore... not bcz i was pissed so i dun wan go dwn.. but i was ashamed to c u guys... n plus.. i was reali reali tired... i juz wana tok on e phone n slp..
i m juz telling u wad happened the whole situation n how i feel dun tke it as like i m complaining even if it sounds like.... we r housemates damn it.. u wana be enemies for the rest of the like 7mths plus?! if u tink u rather hv mi as an enemy... then fine..~ wadeva u say....

How long hv i not updated? yer damn long right.. guess no one reads it animore.. so it is safe to post.. here in melbourne Monash now.. I m so sad.. sigh... duNo.. i miss my sec frenz.. will they 4get mi.. siGh.. sometimes i guessed tt my presence doesnt matter to anione.. onli darling is alwaz there 4 mi? wad if one day he dun wan mi animore.. sigh.. in one place there can nv be more than 2 person.. oH well u guys will nv understand.. i m a loner.. i wana be alone sumtyms.. dun like pple to copy mi dun like pple to follow me.. but i hate myself tt pple are beta than mi while i am not better than them... i hv bad character.. bad attitude.. i wana be a nice gal.. I am a christian how can i tink n act in ways tt God won't like me to do.. Alwaz remind urself clarissa "what will Jesus do" if He was u.. sigh.. i m sad.. veri sad... i dun belong to aniwhere... i juz wana hide myself in a house.. n no one disturb me.. coz i m a loner...................