Sunday, September 25, 2005 {♥} 11:12 PM
been with him over the weekends.. parents are nagging at me for being over sticky.. n tt alwaz go pple house 4 dinner noT paiseh ah.. i realli overdo it le.. siGh.. but i juz wan spent as much tym as possible when he is arnd.. oH well maybe i shld gif sunday's evening a miss n accompany my parents instead.. yer..
hmm FYP report draft 1 finally over n handed in.. hMm duno when will she be returning us... n telling us where is wrng.. at tHe meantym cant do anithing.. but juz relax n do the stuffs i need to do..
he juz now called me n said he was put as the platoon IC... he was afraid.. sigh hope tings will turn out fine for him.. tis will keep him going.. may God gif him the knowledge n wisdom n courage to lead n perform his best.. I believe he can do it.. God will guide him thru...
will he call me again later? *soBz* i pray 4 him
his company got gals.. *yuCkX* i m disgusted.. lol.. he tot i was jealous n he assured me saying the gals r not meant to be seen.. u wan to tok to them u close ur eyes n hear their voice.. u open ur eyes u c 'monster' ahaha tt realli amuse me.. lol.. oH wadevA.. bUt tt stiLL makes me feel beta.. muahaha... met his frend juz now.. his frend said so too.. ahahahhahaha! so farnI the way he n his frend told me.. lOl..
hMm whoLe famiLy is aslp.. but i m not tired lehz.. hOw.. sigh!

siGh.. aS i mentIon reading anGie's blog juz make mi reflect so much with the background music at the back.. iT keeps me wondering, n giFs mi the urge to find means n ways to ask shauN to read the bLog..


words for angie:
if i were u, i realli be like u Lost.. n juz wana hang on to it.. i noE i be lIke u.. tRying to gIf him his space so that he will noT find mi a BUG.. bUt at the same tym juz wana see him n hear his voice.. however.. seeing him will make me feel so heartache n loSt n shattered.. n all e words he mentIoned n memories once shared stArts flashIng back..
bUt based on my character i do anithing to Bug him.. i juz wana prove him n show him tt whether i m with him or not it does not affects the grades at all.. i juz wana do everything i can to hear whether he still luvs me.. i duNo bout u.. but i feel so sad seeiNg u like this.. it juz reminds me of myself last tYm..
iT takes tym to heaL.. long tym.. i took 2 yrs 2 4get n put down my ex.. u can take as loNg as u wan gal.. no one can stOp u.. no one can hlp u.. no amount of words can makes u feel great.. iTs onli u urself.. trust me.. nO matter wad.. u wiLL be tired veri tired... tIll e day u found a new beta one.. u will puT him dwn.. u muz be tinking "NO! I dun wana put him down at all" but there be just one day.. one fine day u will gif uP 4 u find as if there is no hope...
no matter wad gal, u hv all of us supporting u.. u hv to be stroNg n carry on.. if u r tired we ur frenz r e ones u can rely on n will carry u thru ur life's journey.. =)

Wednesday, September 21, 2005 {♥} 12:07 AM
hMmm i TINK i hv gotten over it? abLe to preoccupy myself going out with frenz, giving tuition, pei-ing my mama, pei-ing his mama, doing thesis, packing my room (mum has been nagging, and she warn me to clear my room during tis 2 hols and throw my old clothes awae... *yak yak yak*) ahaha!
he told me he waS real tired n aint used to the life and training was worst den b4.. hMmm.. he seems realli tired.. mke mi feel so hearT pain.. i hOpe i be an understanding gf, and not force him to tke out so much tym to peI mi, when he already feels so tired.. buT hope he wont neglect Lord, but become closer to Lord.. tml he having IPPT again.. hope tings go well n prob maintain his standard in acheiving a silver n not just a pass....


reading angie's blog alwaz mkes mi feel so emotional.. feelings just gushing thru my mind..


reading wenyan's blog juz mkes mi feel like i m into another world of hers.. y do u juz present so differently? y do u noT share how u feel.. it juz mkes mi confused.. u seems so hard to understand... or m i juz tinking too much..


i feel blessed with everything i hv.. praise e Lord..




hv i finsh my thesis?

Monday, September 19, 2005 {♥} 11:29 AM
oH he is back in le... realli damn sad.... cried 4 e past few nites.. buT aft much prayer.. n aft all his consoles... i tiNk i shLd be fine.. i had a memorable tym with him past few days ... in fact the past 1 week plus.. with him being my chaffeur... n i was glad i took e effort to pon last fri.. we went pasir ris for cycling... damn fun... we were like kids.. cycle to e big playground den we started playing there n taking photos n videos... oH man... i reallI miss it so much it was a damN memorable experience.. aft tt we went visit his grandma in hospital.. den met his frend 4 dinner den we went TCC to chill.. a nice place lehz the cine outlet.. lolz.. he spent lots of $$ tis 2 weeks... c le also heart pain sia me.. haiZ...
anIwae he told me.. good tyms past fast.. bad tyms will too.. i certainly hope so.. wonder when will we be meeting once again... *sobZ*

Thursday, September 15, 2005 {♥} 9:18 AM
its early in the mOrniNg.. shOuT: 'GOOD MORNING!!'
ahahaha! 2day is thurs... hmm wenyan is not going to be in sch today n tml.. while i onli be not cuming sch tml.. lol... hmmm.. so fast thurs le.. 3 more days dardar will be going back in der le... sigH... it mkes mi sad... bUt wad to do... aniwae he be knowing his posting results tml.. as in to where he is posted to.. oH well he knows he will get in either officer or sispac.. n he jolly well n every1 simply hv tis feeling tt he will get in sispec.. oh well no matter wad... God has His own plans on him ma... buT i be pei-ing him when he sees his results tml... hMmm... intend to go cycling tml.. den aft tt go out walk walk den meet uP with his frenz.. hee..
yest i was ttoking to his mama.. she sae william is sad tt i m flying to aussie nxt yr.. den last nite i ask him on e phone call.. he sae he was... coz afterall we nv part for so long n tis tym 9mths we will be apart... however i assured hiM tt i hv e confidence in tis relationshIp n tings wiLL work out if we follow God's words closely.. he was glad n felT better den...
aniwae I juz wan spend the rest of tis week with him... den nxt mon when he goes bck in... I shall start to rush my thesis which is left with conclusion n discussion.. n certainly some editing here n there which is gona be due next friday.. so 5 days for me to finish uP then.. I believe i hv e tYm to finisH it.. hope mY tis planning aiNt wrong.. God guIde me Thru.......

Wednesday, September 14, 2005 {♥} 9:27 AM
basicallY i misread 2day UT questIon.. n i guEss i simPly scRewed it all up!

sigh
sigh
sigh
sigh............

Tuesday, September 13, 2005 {♥} 8:23 AM
siGh... i hv yet to recover from my stupid flu virus..darn.. the drugs are damn damn awful.. but i guess no matter wad i m not as bad as wenyan.. oh well... dun mention le.. later she sad sad... aniwae wenyan i will pray 4 u yer.. God will heal u.. no worries...
hMmm... lets c.. today is tues... so another 3 days it will be over n i can officially hv my hols... but i m sad coz he will be going back in nxt monday... but i hv to be strong, coz he sae nxt yr will be a bigger obstacle for us n he dun wan to c me sad at all... he sae no matter wad God has plans 4 us n He shall guide us thru our life journey n relationship... well i shall just leave everything to God's amazing hand...
oH well nxt 2 weeks i be damn free... pple pls call mi out okie haha!

Wednesday, September 07, 2005 {♥} 8:09 AM
For thousands of years the enemy has repeated that strategy. He doesn't care if you believe in the authority of the Bible, as long as he can get you to disbelieve that the one thing standing between you and God is sin.

Who else will tt enemy be........

Tuesday, September 06, 2005 {♥} 8:16 AM
to be responsible, do all things wholeheartedly... do not do more than 1 tings at a time.. if u r doing tis, just concentrate on it, don't think about other things! this is what good time management is.. n the person will then be well-liked.....

Sunday, September 04, 2005 {♥} 10:09 PM
semester is ovvvveeeerrr.......
but not for my sch curriculum.. i still hv 2 more weeks b4 i officially get my holidays! but then tt will onli be 2 weeks... n i shall start my semester 2 of the last yr.. last sem le man... aniwae i will be so freaking bored n lonely during tt 2 weeks brk! serene.. dun work pei me!

aniwae i hv made up my mind.. NO MAC MANAGER.. coz i hv no time, n dey dun accept mi 2.. coz i muz work minimum 9 mths.. howeva tt is not possible when i m flying nxt yr feb..
sigh toking bout flying.. duno whether to feel excited or sian... is like its gona be soooo soon!! a wink of an eye.. tix for airline are booked.. 25th Feb a Sat at 8.15pm Changi Airport T1... so fast right!!! wahz lauz... -__-

dar was toking to me just now.. he said few days ago he read the newspaper.. toking bout tennagers male n female from singapore who went overseas to study.. they are angels here but they became demons there.. they are people who are realli smart who hv the right behavior.. who were prefects n councillors.. yet went they went there they started taking drugs.. overdose of alchohol.. attending rave parties n so on... gals woke up nxt morning realizing nxt to them was some stranger... he was worried.. worried tt i might got peer pressure n go for such party n in the end regret for the rest of my life.. will i be tt way.. i assured him sae Lord will look after me... I will follow God's words closely, and not fall towards temptation (Satan's trap).. but in my heart I am seriously tinking.. Clarissa can u not resist peer pressure.. i duno.. sum tings u will not know till u r der.. but i noe i will be mature enuf to tink b4 i act.. i dun wana hurt myself... nor be a bad testimony as a christian.. hurt my parents.. hurt dardar.. sigh... 10mths though may be short but i noe myself too well.. i will change to be another person in tis 10 mths.. tis alwaz happens when i m in a new environment.. juz hope tt my church frenz n mentor n william will be praying for mi when i m der.........

hmm dardar is passing out tis tues.. time flies right.. yer i noe.. juz wan spend quality time with him.. recently go out also duno wad to do.. end up sitting down toking n eating .. jeez..

my spending mood is gone! FINALLY!! haha

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