Mingwei.. He is good at all kinds of water sports man! he is the one who brought us to wake board de...

Wake-Boarding is simply Fun!!!

wAHz yest hougang 2 hrs den get back electricity.. how i suffer went walking home from bustop after vb training.. but had great fun, wad n experience...
dar juZ called mi... sumhow quarrelled with him.. dardar i'm sori... sori tt i wasnt der 4 u went u were facing so much problems n instead quarrelled with u.. truly sorry...
haiZ.. today in sch experiment suX.. presentation i tink i did fine, however guess what i nv submit my RJ!! RJ closes at 530 lor.. wad the hell for like ages did i hv RJ that closes so early lor.. damn.. den i did not know that it closes at 530 ma.. haiZ.. dont bother to describe.. the more i describe the more pek chek i m.. aniwae i sent a mail to teacher with my RJ.. hopefully she accepts.. sigh sigh sigh......
arghh... lousy feelings r coming back... cnt.. i muz b a happi gurl...

hmMm.. juZ wana uPdate my Blog.. leT mi start frm Yest... yest was sunday, went walk-a-jog den went church.. finally i went church.. after 2 weeks of depression yest i went church n i get myself back to normal again.. there is a reason 4 all that happens, a reason for me to think so much, n finally a way to tell myself not to think so much, and certainly my mission in life.. for all the things in the world are useless & empty.. so what if we can hv everything in the life, so what we can hv all the attentions we wan.. regardless of whatever it is all these are not my missions in life, my mission is very great my future is very great, i know where am i going, what am i doing.. it is enuf, we have to look far and not look in such a narrow way.. anyway juSt praY tt Lord will always be in me, n guiding me.. =)
today is my free day, tml start sch le.. went interview Michael for my professional profiling and he commented that my questions are not structured properly. siGh.. then afterwhich i went walk walk at PS, bought a FIla Gym Bag at 19.90!! 50% sales whoa!! then walk walk suddenly one of the talent scout approach me and say:" are you a forigner?" for a moment i was thinking wad the.. this person surveyor ah... den i replied sae no i'm a singaporean then she sae ok.. then she started toking and ask me whether i wan to be a model.. like what the hell MODEL!! mi so fat still model.. jeeZ.. den she keep pursuading mi, finally being pulled to the office, it is actually called I. models International.. then over there they make mi fill up particulars den anotehr person interviewed me, sae that i look good, and sae i look veri active and sporty, yah true huh lolZ.. den tok tok tok sae how i talk veri direct n cute, i tink their business tactics bahz.. den sae sae den suddenly sae i do really look liek ABC.. darn!! tis is the how mani times, her friend ask mi whetehr i foreigner den she ask mi i ABC ah.. not the first time being mistook le.. damn!! den sae sae sae i was so much convince to go 4 it.. but later i called serene then she told mi not to be fooled then guess I know i should not go 4 it le lor...
haiZ.. dar dar going sch orientation helpout.. argHh.. gonA miss him like crazy.. *soBZ*

hAiYoh... jUZ noW daddY mOOd swiNg again.. NAG NAG NAG.. hAIz... "jia jia you ben nan nian de jing" well let mi update frm yest.. yest went sch collect t-shirt 4 tml walk-a-jog den after that went job interview with serene at royal sporting house, the person in conclusion sae that if there is vacancy will contact us, aniwae obviously thats it.. daMn i need joB can sum1 recommend mi 1.. den aft tt i went orchard walk walk with her, throughout the time being togetehr we were talking bout MONEY!! MONEY THE ROOT OF ALL EVIL.. yesh truly and certainly!! so money money den to family problems.. aft tt meet her le went celebrate my bf frend bdae.. in fact erm i dun enjoy myself, but knew a new frend a gal 2 years younger than mi, quite pretty n sociable n easy-going tink tt y so mani guys wana get close 2 her.. yeah den aft tt went home n tt the end of yest..
todae mi woke up at 12! oh no tis hols i hv been slping late n waking up late die le la.. wake up le go collect my glasses den go meet bf go swimming.. aft which went eat kfc, come home den go back to the starting le is the part where my daddy nags.. haiz, so he bring up everything lor.. lonG story dun wish to type.. mama hv not been in the pink of health lately, God please look over her k... n certainly bring my parents to u Lord..
so yeah, have alot of tings in mind tt i wana do and buy but some are yet to accomplish and some cannot be accomplish .. *sigH* leT mi be a CheerfUl gurL n alWayS tkes tIng easi.. *hug huG myself* "_____" *griNZ*

its in the afternoon now.. not watching today volleyball match.. not interested in this afternoon match, but the night one i m kind of interested, but i scared if today i go out, then tomorrow cannot stay out late cause tomorrow my bf's friend birthday and he want me go.. hMm... so c how later bahz.. argHh super bored, never go out like want to die like that sia.. arghhh i have some tings is in mind that I am vex now about... 1. this saturday i don't want to work, and I want to quit the job because I dont like the people there as well as it is too far le.. 2. if i quit this job then where do I have money to buy things and support myself??? 3. my professional profiling how... duno how to start man damn it... sigH!!
i m reallI dyIng, never go out my mind keep on anyhow think, if I go out mama gonna nag at me.. siGh...........

hMM... i GuEss my Stage oF pMS is ovEr? haha! its sunnY days.. i m feeling much beta compared to last week... JeEZ, so happie..............
yest went wake-board, cable-ski with my dar n frenZ.. whoA wad a greAT experience 4 mi... I reaLLi wanA go aGain bUt its the $$$$$$$... currently i m super super broke.. juz finish a first-aid course which i paid 50bucks... a trekking trip to malaysia that cost mi 70bucks + a trek shoes i aim that cost 75bucks.. whoA suPer broke!!!!!!!!! ARgghhh!! today went vball training.. past few weeks i feel so neglected, hard to explain my feelings but now am feeling beta le, see through le (in chi: kan kai le) haha!
my tis 3 weeks of hols is so pack tt it dun seem like hols to mi, still hv lots of programmes plan ahead, lots of tings ahead of mi to be done.. happi tt i living life to the fullest, making use of each second.. yes i am indeed, howeva.. parents.. dey gona continue to nag at mi... Hlpee!!!!!!!!!!!!

tired.. shack.. lost.. confused.. sick.. mentally and physically just wish to fall into a deep sleep and never wake up.. no words can describe my sickness now..
i'm freaking lost too mani tings had happened, who am i what am i doing i have utterly no idea... all my mission all my goals seem crashing on me, now have i woke up realizing these are not what i can pursue because....... neither have i any idea why.. then what are my goals now? i dunno, i dunno what i want.. without a mission a goal in life i realli dunno what i can do.. Lord tell mi how.. frnz, relationships all seems crashing on me, my life is seriously in a topsy-turvy state which i duno what to do.. i hate who am i now, i hate myself being so quiet, hate myself to be restricted from talking.. what has happen to me...... i'm still searching for my true self .. what do i want..? i have join lots of cca due to my goal of able to tryout all things in life and hoping to learn and acheive something in them.. i have join other things in school hoping that i can receive attention from the teachers.. but.. arghh... i duno i duno what am i toking... maybe i m too occupied with things in school, that ive neglected my frenz and my dar.. worst nowadaes my dar is alwaz showing attitude at the period of time when i m so dwn he s doing this to mi.. argghh... but to lead the life of my sec frenz who are in other polys i find that they are simple but they go too much into fashion n stuffs like that is that what i wan? NO!! den how bout my current poly frenz? they dun even hv time 4 mi, the people here onli makes mi more stressful, just feel so much that this whole world hates mi esp my poly frenz.. arghh.. i just wan to find a frend, a frend who is alwaz der 4 mi, who understands mi, who is simple and that i do not hv to read too much into the person mind... just 1 will do......... life is getting more n more complicated 4 mi.... i juz wana fall into a deep deep slp......................................