mi todae reach sch veri early ... 845... haha thx my dar.... hmmmm... teacher juz cme in got a new teacher inside oso... seems not bad lehz e teacher... haha! urmm.. tis sun me meeting my frend.. she gona pass mi all her notes frm TP... i hope it covers all of wad i m studying.. Lolz... i need buck up yah.. dun wana slack behind... dun wan Cs....... i wan A!!! i onli hv 1 pathetic A so far lorx... tis sun my 2nd mth with him.. so damn slow sia.... but nvm... we still got a long time ahead..... i beleive.... hmm.. okie... mi gtg le.... ciaoz!

veri tired... veir shack... mentally........................................
sigh.. todae reach sch late... stupid bus.. like tortise like that travel so slow.. den summore now still raining been raining continously lorx... todae juz feel that my burden is very heavy... I got to settle alot of my ALC stuffs just to make sure i m doing my job.. den later tis afternoon i got my understanding test... aft tt i got 3 stuffs 2 choose frm... ALC meeting, Guzheng, D&D meeting... oh man.. wad m i supposed to do.. seperate my body can!!! haiz..... tired tired tired.......

i've juz written alot ... but its all gone.. n i noe y!! but i persist to write again... i wont gif up..!!
todae topic is bout terroist attack... what do i noe.. i noe alot of coz.... we are living in the world war 3, the end days......believe it / accept it anot... the world is gona end b4 2043.... when exactly no one knows.... for God will arrived silently without ani1 knowing... all christians will then disappear n rise to heaven.. for those who believed shall be saved... all these are stated in the bible... we are living in the end days that God has described bcz in the end days has stated.. there will be lots of epidemic, disaster, culture.. religion.. races.. conflict n dispute, countries joining into an organization. i.e. ASEAN, EU.. sooner or later the strongest country will be Europe. Also the anti-christ will rise from there. Initially this anti-christ will be acting as a saviour to the earth trying to create peace, this term 'holy great guy' will be only term by those 'blinded people'. Well.. so look arnd the world.. observe n listen.. arent' what I have stated which is from the bible true? Maybe, you might find that I am crapping or whatsoever.. Tink that these are words by a religion that I believed in which is christianity.. Trust me.. all these epidermics will not end.. disasters will continue.. conflicts will never cease.. For those who believe n remember what I saved, thank God for the grace on you.. For those who do not.. May God u continue to work in them n God bless... I am just who am i in saying.. Believe it or not.. Up 2 u.. Think wisely... Seek the truth.. Seek for a life of eternity.. Nothing in this world last.............................................

in sch lohz... mi damn early today sia!! haha.. n y??? all bcz of my nan ren... woke mi up at 7.. mke sure i go to the toilet wash my face b4 putting dwn e phone with mi tt y mi cld reallie be early to sch todae sia.... thx dar!! hmmm... tml got C&C test... i oso duno wad is needed to be studied... haiz.. my results still sux lorx.. 8C, 1A i reallie sian liao le la.. haiz.. wad can i do Lord.. wads gone wrong? whats your will? juz let mi stay close n accept all ur wills..... giv mi e strength to carry on.........................

hmmm.. 2nd day of school.. 2nd day i m late.. sheesh... supposed to wke up at 715 everyday... but guess wad.. yest i wke up at 740... reach sch 915... todae i wke up at 8!!!!! 8 man.... withnin 5mins aft i wke up i was out of e hse rushing to e busstop.. my mind was in a whirl.. tinking to tke cab not... does it mke a difference.. if i tke bus will i be veri late.. in e end i chose to tke bus.. 4 i did not c a cab arnd.. sigh... so now i m in sch 915... hope teacher do not mark mi dwn.. hmm.. shld hv ask my nan ren fetch mi sia.. was reading the daily bread.. It says:
When we say yes to God as His Spirit reveals His will to us through His Word, the bitter circumstances of our lives can become sweet. We must not grumble against what the Lord permits. Instead, we must do all that He asks us to do. Jesus said that we are to take up our cross daily and follow Him (Luke 9:23).
hmm... well so i believe there is a reason of why Lord gives us some pain, for it is only through difficulties that God moulds us to be better.. Thus, I must learn from my mistake yahz.... 'Joys and sorrows are often companions that we will experience anytime in our life'

todae is end of my hols... tml start sch again!! oh man!! how i dread school days... sheesh~~ hmm... last term i reallie screwed up.. though i feel that I had done my best... but nvm i will do even better tomorrow.. reallie concentrate n tok.. n not surf the net... i wana excel in my studies dun wana let down my parents, I wana glorify GOD too.. Lord, please give me the strength, knowledge and wisdom to excel in my studies!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't slack anymore, I must do well in my studies, cca, n all the relationships!! wad past is past.. evrydae is a new dae... alwaz start anew.. =) Clarissa u can do it... U have the will n u WILL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *gambatei*

Happy Chinese New Year!!! jeez.. todae is like erm Chu Yi.. mi went grandma hse visit.. den aft tt cme home.. aft tt he brought mi to his grandma hse where i met alot of his relatives n collected lots of angbaos frm der too so paiseh.. mummy still sae y so zhang yang n thich skin later brk le den like so wad lidat.. jeez... tink mummy still acceptable of him.. ermz.. tt wad i feel la ha!!! okie.. i had a great dae todae aniwae.. my first time celebrate CNY with nan ren.. ha!!!

-in school now-
hmm.. now having dinner and dance meeting... guess wad.. mi now reformat my comp le.. install all e prog needed le..
so damn cool lorx.. woo~~ not lag oso... haha... hmm.. tings r getting better.. my life too.... hmm... nuthing juz wana update bout this matter onli.. jeeZ~ ok... mi gtg 4 e meeting le .. muz concentrate sia.. *bleahz*

ha!! early morn now.. nan ren called mi in the bus to mke sure i wke up n not oversleep in the bus ... jeez.. thx nan ren.. hmm.. duno y my stomach now so pain.. sheesh.. realli pain worx.. later need go 4 my guzheng performance.. yest was playing on stage.. guess wad in my 4 yrs it was the worst performance that i ever heard.. I just feel that everyone is still not ready lorx... haiz... EVEN MI... I screw up yest dry run.. hopefully today will turn out beta..
Hmm todae teacher for the module seems interesting nice n lenient.. thugh she is onli a relieved teacher... hmmm.. hopefully she wont screw up my grades yah.. okie man my stomach real pain i wana go toilet ciaoz!!

-sianz-
wahz kaoz... this morning already so suay... I overslept the bus and slept over my school bus stop lorx... Then I was already late when I alight the bus I saw the opposite 132 just pass!!!! kaoz.. boh bian.. ll I can do is to take a cab and rush to school. Wad the there is a surcharge of $1 in the end I reach school paying 4 bucks for nothing... 4 nothing ok... oh man.... sigh... Now come school enterprise a module which sux the most... I just wonder how business students study sia... It just sux lorx... hm.. maybe I am not interested in this sort of stuffs that is why I just can't do it... really wonder how my frenz grace n jasmine study these kind of stuffs lorx... wad the...
haiz.... yest my nan ren came sch n sent mi home.. got a chance to meet today... duno todae n tml n sat be able to meet anot.. coz i noe he cnt cme out at nite everyday.. i oso dun wan hai him kena niam... ya lorx.. but if we dun meet 4 tis 3 days... i gona miss him like wad lorx.. haiz.. dar sori worx... maybe after tis year will not be so busi le... okie... at e moment when i busi u juz study hard yahz....
hmmm... ok la.. beta go bk do my stupid enterprise... which is accountings................... oh man!!!

-Confused-
Haiz.. Just patch things up with him, 2nd time we quarrel in less than a week. Was damn pissed off and sad last night or I should say more of sad. 2nd time i cried after being with him. Sigh.. Just feel that we 2 will be very instable with our sort of character as we easily flare up and keep insisting and thinking that we are not wrong. Last night all my memories start coming back how I was actually hurt by each guy. But it wasn't totally all the guys fault it was also part of my fault, but I just feel that I can't trust guys at all. If I were the last time me, I would have say I want to leave him last night but I just can't afford to. I was really confused, really very confused last night. But somehow I wasn't very depress compared to last time. i am quite numb to this kind of thoughts this kind of feelings. Is this part of the mood swing I am having again? I don't know but hopefully yes. I don't want to make anymore stupid decisions and regret later. Clarissa please stop all your nonsense attitude, not everyone can take your petty attitude, it takes 2 hands 2 clap ok, don't do stupid actions again.. Sigh............................................................................... *but sometimes its really not my fault wad.. sheesh~*

-Pissed Off Mood-
Sheesh, I damn sian lorx... 6C, 1 A.. this semester really suck it .. No matter how hard i try, even if I get full quiz score for my module, I still get a C... W.T.F.. what is this man where have I gone wrong or done wrong.. I really very sian, I have screwed up this semester.. Everything just don't seem well for me, what am I supposed to do.. Haiz.. Tomorrow I got BioChem test.. Have yet to study and do not know what to study, what if tomorrow my comp hang on me again halfway through the quiz.. Zhe Me Ban..... haiz... hao fan lehz... STupid comp... tonight still need go out with secondary school friends to eat, but tomorrow got test I need and want to study lehz... what should I do lehz?? Should I go or not... haiz...............................................

ha!! hows my new blogskin nice?? keke kinda c le abit shuang yah.. but it is always this way you always admire new stuffs. me now in school le, teacher have not come in yet don't know why this 2 days the teachers are late sia.. sigh.. later after school got ALC meeting hopefully it won't be till very late cause gona meet up with him then after that must go home study for my science test which is tomorrow. Don't want to get a C sia.. haiz... Hm... can see myself getting very serious off my work this time when school-reopen again.. no more dozing off.. no more slacking.. I want to do well hopefully I won't have any more C.........!! yupZ.. hmm.. yesterday grace and jasmine quarrel hopefully they have patch things up by now yah... yepz... hmm.... ok my teacher is in got to go ciaoz!!!

oops.... its been ages tt i hv update my blog le ... longlong ages... dont expect mi to sae out the past days details yahz... hmm... welll juz a brief update... how m i... veri fine.... its 5days ago tt it was my 1st mth with him.. but to us it feels as if we hv been together 4 ages... we r juz too used with one another.. getting dependent on one another too.. hmmm... or I should sae i m the one getting veri dependent on him... ha!!! hmm... sch juz started everything is still ok not busi yet.. but soon to be i guess... dun wana tink so much yah.. juz let Lord guide me thru each day... I know Lord cant answer my probs angie... but I know he is there to guide me thorugh and that I do not have to worry so much... jeeZ~~ yupz... hmm.. he oso had came to my church.. tink he felt awkward n weird.. but nevertheless still happi tt he came ya!! my bro saw him at church, den frm den on my bro keep on commenting gd remarks of him in front of my mama.. but my mama sae tt dun tink so much la.. tis age shd concentrate on the studies... for him his parents oso had comment sae tt juz be frenz first mahz... den like ya lors tis kind of age nuthing will last... but 4 us both... we juz wana work togther 4 our future as well as concentrate on our studies... *wink* remember our As yahz... haha!!! hmm.. yepz.. gtg n do my stuffs keep tis updated ciaoz!!!!